Not HappyI'm not happy.Not Happy by Noahfan736
How badly do I wish that I could smile.
How I wish that I could live a normal life.
Feel no dependency on others.
To have the ability to make
My own happiness.
I see others laugh and
I cannot laugh along with them.
I want to steal their
I want it for myself
Because I cannot make my own.
I'm a good person,
That, I say with confidence.
I am a good person
Who can only feel the fell of dark.
I am not happy.
Secret Sister p3"Asano-san! Good morning!" Izuru greeted Anzu pleasantly as they passed outside the individual company barracks. Both liked getting out for a while, Izuru to think and Anzu to get rid of the testosterone that smelled up her clothes.Secret Sister p3 by Noahfan736
"Kira-fukutaicho! Good morning! What are you doing out so early sir?" Although still ranking beneath the Lieutenants, Anzu had made very good friends with Kira now that she was spending so much time training with his captain and had been given permission to ease up on the niceties. Kira smiled from beneath his long blonde hair but subconsciously tightened his grip on his writing pad. Although he liked the young girl, she was from the most violent of companies and was still unsure if she had the demeanor of the men.
"Taicho sent me looking for you Asano-san. He says that it has been a month and you no longer need him. He would like to wish you good luck and looks forward to seeing you around our barracks more. Are you getting transferred to our company?"
HopelessnessHopelessness, it's like a black void just filling your soul. You can't sleep, you can't eat, you can't stop the tears.Hopelessness by Noahfan736
Anger, it's an all consuming rage that you can't stop. Nothing would make you happier than to destroy.
There's a sinking feeling in my stomach, accompanied by a strange tide of emotions. Occasionally I'll cry, followed by long periods of just emptiness. This is worse than a long cry because I never know when the tears will come.
You already love her, don't you? You say you don't, but you've had her in your mind awhile. It hurts so bad, because I know it's my fault. If I could've put my pride aside, I could've stopped this.
The rage and the anger and the utter hopelessness fill my stomach as I try to sleep again. I want to cry more, but with you no longer around, on whom's shoulder can I cry? No ones.
Secret Sister p2It had been months since Anzu had entered their ranks, but Ikkaku still refused to acknowledge her. True to her word, Anzu never once approached her brother. She hoped that one day he would come up to her and allow her to reclaim her rightful name, but from what she'd seen since she joined Squad 11, Ikkaku was not the same brother that had abandoned her. As a child she remembered him being funny, attentive and loving. Now, from everything she'd witnessed, it wasn't even the same person. Now he was bloodthirsty and always looking for a fight, not the same Ikkaku that had raised her. It was that coldness that kept Anzu in the training rooms long after the men had left for the night. She hoped that if she got under the good graces of Captain Zaraki, she could get closer to nii-sama again and turn him into the nii-sama that had raised her.Secret Sister p2 by Noahfan736
"Asano-san," Anzu heard from the hallway. She pulled her Shikai from the training dummy to see her very own brother standing in the door frame, arms cro
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